hugs

I used to be a hugger, I used to hug everyone when I saw them. If I went two days without seeing Nick or Claire or Diane or Zach I would give them a big hug. And I loved it, I loved hugging people, as long as they didn't have their significant other with them I would give them a great big hug. Whether it was because I needed a hug or because I thought they did I'm still not too sure. But what I do know is now I miss that. Now I have no friends that I can really hug like that, at least of those who live near me. And it's almost considered a social faux pas to hug a man now that I'm married. Last time I got a hug from a guy it was one of those I haven't seen you in a REALLY long time hugs where you practically run into each others arms. And it was true, I really hadn't seen him in that long. But there was social awkwardness around us the whole time, not because his girlfriend was sitting next to him at the time after all she was his girlfriend practically the whole time I'd ever known him. It also wasn't awkward because he was drunk, after all that's what's expected of drunk people. It was awkward because I am married and my husband was right next to me.

Now I have to ask what's wrong with hugs? Especially good-bye or I haven't seen you in forever hugs? Why does a married woman gave to all of a sudden give up all the non-sexual touching, like joking around and hugs, as soon as she gets married? Where is that written into the books? Because I for one need my hugs, for emotional support and to keep my sexual drive with my husband alive, I need touches from others!

hugs

I used to be a hugger, I used to hug everyone when I saw them. If I went two days without seeing Nick or Claire or Diane or Zach I would give them a big hug. And I loved it, I loved hugging people, as long as they didn't have their significant other with them I would give them a great big hug. Whether it was because I needed a hug or because I thought they did I'm still not too sure. But what I do know is now I miss that. Now I have no friends that I can really hug like that, at least of those who live near me. And it's almost considered a social faux pas to hug a man now that I'm married. Last time I got a hug from a guy it was one of those I haven't seen you in a REALLY long time hugs where you practically run into each others arms. And it was true, I really hadn't seen him in that long. But there was social awkwardness around us the whole time, not because his girlfriend was sitting next to him at the time after all she was his girlfriend practically the whole time I'd ever known him. It also wasn't awkward because he was drunk, after all that's what's expected of drunk people. It was awkward because I am married and my husband was right next to me.

Now I have to ask what's wrong with hugs? Especially good-bye or I haven't seen you in forever hugs? Why does a married woman gave to all of a sudden give up all the non-sexual touching, like joking around and hugs, as soon as she gets married? Where is that written into the books? Because I for one need my hugs, for emotional support and to keep my sexual drive with my husband alive, I need touches from others!

most traumatic experience of my life

There's a bird lying in the room across from mine chirping in a very high pitched way every now and again for the worms her mother is about to feed her. Her name is Samantha Grace Whiteaker and she was born on April 30th at 11:11PM weighing 6 pounds 1 ounce and a total of 17 inches long. That night she started changing the lives of many around her. She made my best friend a new mother and her husband a new father not to mention new grandparents. But she changed more than those lives too. She changed my life forever. Now don't get me wrong, I have no blood relation at all to little Sammie and I have done just about any job involving children you can imagine. But nothing can compare to seeing your friend who you have known for a long time being your first ever friend to have a baby and become a mother. Not only that but actually see your friend go through the pains of child labor, both at the hospital and after the baby was born. There is no question about it, before this I loved children and always wanted to have a child. But now its real, I'm hooked. Sign me up! I want to have a child!

Now keeping this in mind I still want to go to graduate school in architecture and maybe even become an architect so I will definitely be waiting to have a baby, maybe even wait till Sammie has a little sister or brother waiting to be born but now I know what I'm waiting for and I can't wait! I'm excited and ready!