hugs

I used to be a hugger, I used to hug everyone when I saw them. If I went two days without seeing Nick or Claire or Diane or Zach I would give them a big hug. And I loved it, I loved hugging people, as long as they didn't have their significant other with them I would give them a great big hug. Whether it was because I needed a hug or because I thought they did I'm still not too sure. But what I do know is now I miss that. Now I have no friends that I can really hug like that, at least of those who live near me. And it's almost considered a social faux pas to hug a man now that I'm married. Last time I got a hug from a guy it was one of those I haven't seen you in a REALLY long time hugs where you practically run into each others arms. And it was true, I really hadn't seen him in that long. But there was social awkwardness around us the whole time, not because his girlfriend was sitting next to him at the time after all she was his girlfriend practically the whole time I'd ever known him. It also wasn't awkward because he was drunk, after all that's what's expected of drunk people. It was awkward because I am married and my husband was right next to me.

Now I have to ask what's wrong with hugs? Especially good-bye or I haven't seen you in forever hugs? Why does a married woman gave to all of a sudden give up all the non-sexual touching, like joking around and hugs, as soon as she gets married? Where is that written into the books? Because I for one need my hugs, for emotional support and to keep my sexual drive with my husband alive, I need touches from others!